If we should believe in the things that we see
Tell us, should we run away
Should we try and stay
Or would it be better just to let things be?
~ Home (from the Wiz)
During a period of transition we often have to re-examine every aspect of our lives. Some pieces are discarded; others cast aside, or laid to rest forever. It's a slow, painstaking process and it takes both strength and grace to let go.
My path is littered with things that need to be examined one piece at a time. Sometimes it feels like I'm picking my way through the rubble of my life. Everything has come under scrutiny: friendships, relationships with family members, and even ideas about myself. My core values have been put to the test, and my faith has been altered. For so long I've relied on my intellect to help me make decisions, but the decisions haven't always been the best choices for my life.
Intuition, that gut feeling within each of us is a powerful gift to possess. As a child I listened closely to the "feelings" I had about a person or a particular situation. As an adult, I was led to believe that the intellect was superior; the head should rule the heart.
So I hid my gift away. Fear, not intuition took over. Even when intuition fought to be heard, I ran. The gut choice often took a leap of faith that I did not possess.
Ultimately, denying my gift was my undoing. It cost me years of happiness, and for a long time I was filled with what southerners call the, "should've's, and could've's."
During my transition time, I have re-claimed my gift. I've dug it out of the rubble, polished it off, and now rely on my intuition to be my guide.
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