It's a sunshine-y day!
Operation attitude adjustment is now in Week Three and the changes are remarkable!
After lolling in the doldrums- again, I finally got fed up with myself. I was tired of pushing so hard to get through the day.
Looking in the mirror one morning I was shocked to see how old I looked. The constant stress and overall feelings of being depressed were taking their toll on my physical self as well as my mental health. I knew that much of this is part of a forty- something woman's lot.
We get to go through all the changes associated with our reproductive systems shutting down. Like the Kennedy Space Center phasing out the shuttle program, my body is slowly and reluctantly pushing me through to another stage in my life.
Without doing a full infomercial here, I found a site run by my former OB/GYN who has discovered natural ways to ease the symptoms and create balance in my hormones. After the brief quiz, I found that not only was I deficient in certain hormones, but my stress indicators were off the charts. Three weeks into his prescribed formula for me, I am feeling like myself again.
The changes in my body chemistry has made it easier to fight the dark thoughts and feel more positive. My attitude is more upbeat and I am more inclined to eat better and exercise. On my long walks around the surrounding neighborhoods I have discovered some beautiful spots that I don't notice when whizzing by in the car.
The change of attitude has helped me frame the disappointments and raised hopes into a gentler reality. In other words: what will be, will be. I can let it defeat me, or I can accept it as another step in the transition time of my life.
This change of attitude could not have come at a better time. On Monday I had a delightful lunch with the new director of the Episcopal Cathedral. She conducting a careful search for vibrant visionaries who are willing and able to lend their skills and talents to create a thriving parish.
Her enthusiasm was contagious and I was most excited to dream and scheme; to imagine all of the vast possibilities of what could be created.
But, even if this doesn't pan out, I am grateful for the opportunity to focus more clearly on what I really enjoy doing. Our conversation was stimulating and illuminating. And I realize that no matter what happens, I have a multitude of gifts and skills that will be valuable to someone. I just need to keep the positive attitude and not give up.
Change is on the way....
No comments:
Post a Comment